I need some time
by amanda
I need time to:
- Shower
- bathe my children
- think
- clean up flooded basements
- do laundry
- put the laundry away
- read Deathly Hallows again
- do things with my kids individually
- start 30-day shred
- take time for myself
- stress free craft/scrapbook time
SLEEP.
I just don’t have time to think about blogging. Its gone down hill and I don’t like that.
I used to be able to write fairly well but now I just have little snippets of sentences between photos.
I’m tired, and there are a lot of things I want to do.
Do you ever wonder why the hell you feel the need to share so much about yourself and learn so much about others. I’d rather live right now for a while.
I’m going to continue my New Year’s Resolution to blog everyday, but for now its going to be a daily photo until I feel like writing again.
I mean, I’m having massive behavioral issues with my son, I need to do something about it.
I was sobbing in my bathtub last night, fully clothed, because I honestly don’t like my child. I really can look at Warren and feel like he isn’t mine. He makes me so crazy I’ve gotten to this point of just wishing someone would take him for I don’t know how long. Its awful. How can a mother feel like that?
We’re going to try a few new methods with him and find out what works. I need to focus on him and trying to get along with him so I don’t feel like I hate him anymore.
I still hate my hair and will have random breakdowns if I glance at a mirror. Its pathetic, I know.
From here until I come back I’ll post a picture for the day, feel free to comment with a title or quote that fits. Maybe it will make my day :)
Oh girl, I’m so sorry you’re having such a hard time! I know everyone goes through these rough patches, hang in there!!
I’m sorry things are so crazy for you. The only advice I have is to keep taking time for yourself. If the kids don’t get a bath one day, they’ll live (throw them in the baby pool instead :-)). If it helps your mood out greatly, leave the dishes and take that 20 minutes for yourself to read some.
Oh, if you ever want me to take Warren for a day, let me know!!
I have a little guy (he’s four and a half) who sounds a bit like your oldest boy. We’ve struggled off and on and I feel like I’ve finally gotten a handle on it. I tried love and logic, time outs, yelling and losing it…but the book The Explosive Child has been exceptionally helpful for me. I know how tough it is–to look at your sweet boy and love him a ton but not…really…LIKE…him a whole lot. Best of luck–you’re not alone!!
I’m sorry! Take time out for yourself. Very important.
My brother, Luke, who is now 19. He has MAJOR behavioral issues growing up. When he was 3 my parents took us up to a doctor in Portland,Or to discuss his ‘issues’. While Luke was literally climbing all over him and all over his curtains he told me parents ‘This child will ruin you family. You will all need counseling including your other children. He will never change and I cant help you’
Talk about a slap in the face! Luke grew up with behavioral issues, just like the doctor said he would. We just learned to live with them I guess. As he has moved on into adulthood, he has gotten quite a bit better.
My parents where like you…at moments, they wanted NOTHING to do with him. Just know. Things will get better, there is a light at the end of the tunnel. So keep your chin up girlie! Just remember, there is always someone with a ‘worst’ kid ;)
btw…we didnt need counseling =)